He rolls his eyes again, but trust Suyeong to make him feel more like himself - to pull him out of the guilt and hopelessness that being the Oldest Dream had caused him. He doesn't comment on the hand.
"I am," he says. "I don't think I've eaten in .... well."
It's not like there was food on that train. Technically he didn't need to eat as a constellation, but it wasn't like he didn't enjoy it, or the stories that went into making the food.
Suyeong pushes herself up to her feet and heads out of the bedroom. Well, a Suyeong does; the actual woman doesn't so much as twitch while her Avatar gets to work.
Avatar really is the best ability, isn't it? If you don't count the scam stuff like Dokja and Junghyeok have.
"You're not allowed to leave again, you know."
That's... empty. They both know it. What happens when they need to go home? They can't stay here forever, can they? The world doesn't work like that, inhaling and expelling people like a round-robin story where each new author wants to introduce an entirely new cast. Will it grow tired of them? Will the damn Labyrinth discard their story someday?
Their story.
Suyeong goes deadly still. Not even breathing, as those two words catch up a million more, like the final snowflakes that trigger an avalanche. The recent excursion into the Labyrinth and what she's seen there, what she concluded about it.
"Dokja."
Both her hands tighten into fists, one balling up the fabric of his shirt and one clamping down hard on his arm as she lifts her head to look at him. An expression of cold determination and raw joy, somehow mixing despite their complete incompatibility.
"Our stories. The Labyrinth is invested in them. If we engrave them into it, if we make it care about them... It can do what you were doing. The story will have a reader. You can come back."
since dokja seems to not know when he talks to the fourth wall before the knock
Dokja smiles, lopsided and sad, when she tells him he's not allowed to leave. He knows exactly what's going though her head, how this place is different from the stream.
Then she goes still, fingers bruising on his wrist, and he watches something pass over her face, a thousand storylines flipping though her head. What she says is... possible, isn't it? Pass the buck onto someone - or in this case something - else.
Then the hopeful expression he's wearing gives way to something crestfallen, and he shakes his head.
"Suyeong... I had already lost most of my stories when you knocked. They're already gone, to become other readers."
A failsafe, though he's not sure whose. The Dokkaebi King that became the Fourth Wall? The king before, in the 1864th round who wanted him to become King, or an immutable law of the universe they were now a part of?
⸢You shouldn't have been greedy. No, y o u sh oul d've be en con te nt wi th 49% Kim Dok ja⸥
"But here you are." She thumps his chest with his own shirt to punctuate each word. "This isn't the Star Stream. Rules are different here. If they weren't you -- wouldn't be here."
She has to force out those last words, connected as they are to the memory of their final moments on the train, their return to the 1864th, and the seeming end that followed.
"I --" Be honest, Suyeong. Don't hide things, no matter how embarrassing. Tell them straight and tell them true. It's the only way. "I wished to get you back, you know. If this place... if this place plays by its own rules, if it sets a contract it has to obey, it has to grant that wish. Somehow."
Small though she might be, something seems to hover over her as she glares up at him. Some things, making themselves known.
[Story, "Revision Specialist" is choosing its pen.] [Story, "Guide of the Line Spacing" is donning lensless glasses.]
"I'll make it. I'll force it if I have to. I'll do it without you if I have to, but I don't want to."
[Story, "Ultimate Lie" is ready to write the False Last Act.]
"You are coming back with us, Kim Dokja."
The Oldest Dream he might be, but this reality is not his, not theirs. She'll put her strength against his if she has to. In this moment, how could any will, any force, any reality compete with her own determination to keep him?
"So stop telling me why you can't and start making it so you can!"
There's a reason he's always adored her story - that sense of refusing to give up permeates it because it's a part of her. It's what gave him the will to hold on for ten years. She's asking him to trust her, in a way - the same way he'd asked her to trust him. (The same trust he'd betrayed, from time to time.)
"I never said I wouldn't help," he protests, glancing at the screens making themselves known. "I wished to see everyone again, after all."
Maybe those two wishes would be strong enough. Hadn't he wished to read about Junghyeok forever, as a child? That might be why these cursed worldlines exist.
Still, he adds, "I just don't want you to get your hopes up if it doesn't work again." I don't want to lie and hurt you again.
She scoffs dramatically. Their emotional vulnerability might not have completely faded, but it did just take a hit with that noise... though the more usual dynamic it leads to is no less comfortable and welcome for that.
"Idiot, the worst that happens is I go back to how I was feeling before. Every chance I get here is one I gotta grab because I didn't have it before."
He still doesn't get it. Maybe he never will. But it won't be for lack of her trying.
"And you have kids to get back to, so you've got no excuse!"
He's joking - mostly! - when he asks her that, successfully wiping away the vulnerability both of them aren't good with. His smile is cheeky, more like himself than the somber one he'd been sporting before.
Still, he curls himself close to her, careful not to cage her in, but enjoying her presence all the same.
(One person is missing, but - two of three isn't bad, either.)
"We spent a few months training for that. Did you see it? Or was it not counted as part of the story?"
She's actually curious here, touching as this does on her own ■■. Did the story continue past that ending for him, or did he only see it once it started at the beginning one more time?
"Okay. So you basically... know everything that happened. Especially the really relevant stuff about me."
The breadth and scope of her status, in other words. The stories she'd picked up. What she'd done the same as he had, and what she'd done differently. That saves her a lot of explanation.
Don't get her wrong. She's glad beyond words to have him back. She feels happier and more alive and safer than she has in a very long time. But she isn't going to let him forget the consequences of his choices, either.
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"I am," he says. "I don't think I've eaten in .... well."
It's not like there was food on that train. Technically he didn't need to eat as a constellation, but it wasn't like he didn't enjoy it, or the stories that went into making the food.
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Avatar really is the best ability, isn't it? If you don't count the scam stuff like Dokja and Junghyeok have.
"You're not allowed to leave again, you know."
That's... empty. They both know it. What happens when they need to go home? They can't stay here forever, can they? The world doesn't work like that, inhaling and expelling people like a round-robin story where each new author wants to introduce an entirely new cast. Will it grow tired of them? Will the damn Labyrinth discard their story someday?
Their story.
Suyeong goes deadly still. Not even breathing, as those two words catch up a million more, like the final snowflakes that trigger an avalanche. The recent excursion into the Labyrinth and what she's seen there, what she concluded about it.
"Dokja."
Both her hands tighten into fists, one balling up the fabric of his shirt and one clamping down hard on his arm as she lifts her head to look at him. An expression of cold determination and raw joy, somehow mixing despite their complete incompatibility.
"Our stories. The Labyrinth is invested in them. If we engrave them into it, if we make it care about them... It can do what you were doing. The story will have a reader. You can come back."
since dokja seems to not know when he talks to the fourth wall before the knock
Then she goes still, fingers bruising on his wrist, and he watches something pass over her face, a thousand storylines flipping though her head. What she says is... possible, isn't it? Pass the buck onto someone - or in this case something - else.
Then the hopeful expression he's wearing gives way to something crestfallen, and he shakes his head.
"Suyeong... I had already lost most of my stories when you knocked. They're already gone, to become other readers."
A failsafe, though he's not sure whose. The Dokkaebi King that became the Fourth Wall? The king before, in the 1864th round who wanted him to become King, or an immutable law of the universe they were now a part of?
⸢You shouldn't have been greedy. No, y o u sh oul d've be en con te nt wi th 49% Kim Dok ja⸥
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She has to force out those last words, connected as they are to the memory of their final moments on the train, their return to the 1864th, and the seeming end that followed.
"I --" Be honest, Suyeong. Don't hide things, no matter how embarrassing. Tell them straight and tell them true. It's the only way. "I wished to get you back, you know. If this place... if this place plays by its own rules, if it sets a contract it has to obey, it has to grant that wish. Somehow."
Small though she might be, something seems to hover over her as she glares up at him. Some things, making themselves known.
[Story, "Revision Specialist" is choosing its pen.]
[Story, "Guide of the Line Spacing" is donning lensless glasses.]
"I'll make it. I'll force it if I have to. I'll do it without you if I have to, but I don't want to."
[Story, "Ultimate Lie" is ready to write the False Last Act.]
"You are coming back with us, Kim Dokja."
The Oldest Dream he might be, but this reality is not his, not theirs. She'll put her strength against his if she has to. In this moment, how could any will, any force, any reality compete with her own determination to keep him?
"So stop telling me why you can't and start making it so you can!"
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"I never said I wouldn't help," he protests, glancing at the screens making themselves known. "I wished to see everyone again, after all."
Maybe those two wishes would be strong enough. Hadn't he wished to read about Junghyeok forever, as a child? That might be why these cursed worldlines exist.
Still, he adds, "I just don't want you to get your hopes up if it doesn't work again." I don't want to lie and hurt you again.
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"Idiot, the worst that happens is I go back to how I was feeling before. Every chance I get here is one I gotta grab because I didn't have it before."
He still doesn't get it. Maybe he never will. But it won't be for lack of her trying.
"And you have kids to get back to, so you've got no excuse!"
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He's joking - mostly! - when he asks her that, successfully wiping away the vulnerability both of them aren't good with. His smile is cheeky, more like himself than the somber one he'd been sporting before.
Still, he curls himself close to her, careful not to cage her in, but enjoying her presence all the same.
(One person is missing, but - two of three isn't bad, either.)
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She's actually curious here, touching as this does on her own ■■. Did the story continue past that ending for him, or did he only see it once it started at the beginning one more time?
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It didn't explain if he'd witnessed the conversation with the Fourth Wall, though.
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The breadth and scope of her status, in other words. The stories she'd picked up. What she'd done the same as he had, and what she'd done differently. That saves her a lot of explanation.
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He doesn't say: You saved me twice. If he points it out it'll make her close up more. Instead, he closes his eyes and laughs a little.
"The Star Stream does like making you wait the longest, doesn't it."
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Don't get her wrong. She's glad beyond words to have him back. She feels happier and more alive and safer than she has in a very long time. But she isn't going to let him forget the consequences of his choices, either.